I Apologize

5/28/25 1:42 AM
LynL
LEFTBEHINDINSTRUCTIONS.COM

05/27/25

I apologize for the things that should have gone right but went wrong in my lifetime.  I apologize for not paying attention to your calling, the majority of my life.  I apologize for the things I could have done but didn’t.  I am sorrowful knowing that I wasted so much time on things that did not matter and were unfruitful.  I am sorry I didn’t help those who needed help and just ignored them, while telling myself they would spend the money on drugs.  I am shameful of the lies I used to manipulate situations and people.  I look back and recall others property, that I took to further myself, not caring how it affected others.  I ponder what I could have accomplished at an earlier time if I was more like you.  You know, if I had not worried about appearances, wealth or power.  All my mistakes, faux pas, and “stabbings” of my own character brought me to an understanding that love is all we have.  Love of self, love of others and love of God.  Our past is the past, if we can get past it.  You become a new creation in Christ when love of others supersedes self.  Self is overrated, for it is shallow and meaningless when not incorporated with love.

Take a moment to ponder your weaknesses and repent of them to purge your soul, of that weight that holds you down.  Know that with God you can change to be who you were meant to be.  I look at myself now and know I am not perfect.  I make mistakes but they pale from the past.  I repent, I brush myself off and change direction to get on the right path.  I don’t worry who likes me or respects me.  For it is only God that I need to impress.  For I never want my creator to be ashamed of me.  So, I battle through this race, till it is finished, hoping to impact others positively along the way.

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