My name is Kathleen.
The dream was received on November 15, 2018.
I’d like to share a personal testimony which may help those who read it.
Fifty years ago, on March 29, 1969, my family and I were busy preparing for the next day’s events. I was to profess my faith in Christ the next day. We’d celebrate afterwards with family who’d come in from out-of-town. We were finishing up the details of what could be done ahead of time. My mother naturally wanted everything to go well. I knew this, and yet I turned toward her and jokingly said, ‘I think I’m getting the mumps.’ Mind you, I didn’t know anyone who had the mumps. I just said this to say it, nothing more.
Much to my shock and my mother’s dismay, the next morning I woke up with the mumps! There was nothing psychosomatic about it. I really had the mumps and I was contagious, as my three brothers learned to their dismay.
Because everything had been planned for months in advance, I was going to be at worship and make my promises before God and my family.
I was excited about being confirmed. I’d studied for three years as was the tradition. I’d believed in Jesus ever since I could remember. I loved him with all my heart and now I was about to make a public profession of my faith in him. I thought I was ready but nothing could prepare me for what happened as I made my promises.
While I was professing my faith in Christ, I was literally ‘hit’ by something and whatever it was, it went deep into my spirit. For the first time in my life, I was afraid that I didn’t believe in Jesus. Doubts filled my mind. The joy which had been in my heart turned into great anxiety. I made my promises but my mind was terrified.
I have suffered much since that day. Doubt, fear, depression, thoughts of suicide filled my life. The childlike faith I’d once enjoyed was gone. I was a spiritual mess!
Now to the good news! On November 15, 2018 I had a disturbing dream. I was greatly confused. I dreamt that I was to officiate at a wedding. I’d made the preparations I needed to make. But when the time came for me to go to the wedding, I couldn’t find the order of service, the message I’d written, my alb, or my clothes. I couldn’t even remember the name of the bride and groom! I was in panic mode. I would simply have to soldier forth. What else could I do? Suddenly my mother showed up with the dress she had made and I had worn on my confirmation day. I was happy to see her and thankful to have that dress. It was folded length-ways down the dress and it was extremely stiff, almost to the point of being brittle. I carefully ‘opened’ the dress and felt everything would be okay. (End of Dream.)
Here is what I sensed the Lord spoke to me about this dream.
“Kathleen, confusion and panic are not of Me. I am your Peace. I am you Comfort and Joy and your Rest.
“You remember your confirmation day well. You woke up with the mumps that morning. The words you’d spoken the night before as a joke to your mother came to pass. As you’ve pondered those words, you’ve come to know firsthand the power of words. This shouldn’t be a surprise. You are created in My image. My words created everything and hold all things together. Those words you uttered gave the enemy an entry point into your life and then he hit you like a flood when you were speaking your promises to Me. Fear entered into your heart when no fear had ever been a part of your spiritual life before that moment. Doubt also entered your life. Before then, you had no doubts whatsoever in me or in Jesus. Your life became a struggle from that point on. Oh how I’ve wept for you and for the childlike faith you lost.
“Depression came upon you then as well. As you can now see, those careless words you spoke became a watershed moment in your life. Everything changed, and not for the better.
“My plans for you have always been good. The enemy naturally wants to take you out. That “thing” that ‘hit’ you on your confirmation day was an unclean spirit. You learned this in the course of time and when his presence became obvious, you did the right thing and had him cast out. When you did this, your entire life immediately began to change for the better.
“You’ve been reminded of your confirmation day through this dream so that you can close the spiritual door you opened. You know what you need to do. Do it now.”
At this point, I immediately wrote down and then spoke aloud a prayer of repentance. I asked the Lord to forgive me and the careless words I’d uttered. I asked the Lord to permanently shut the spiritual door I’d opened and seal it with the Blood of Jesus. I asked for the cleansing Blood of Jesus to flow throughout my entire being and cleanse me of everything that entered my soul and spirit and life at that moment. I asked to be cleansed of fear, doubt, unbelief, depression, suicidal thoughts, anger and everything else that entered my life then. I asked to Lord to renew me, restore me, and return to me many-fold what the enemy had stolen from me. I especially asked that the childlike faith in Christ I had once enjoyed be restored to me. All of these things I asked of my Lord in the precious Name of Jesus.
Here is what I sensed the Lord’s response to me was…
“I have heard your cry. Your sin has been forgiven. The door you opened on March 29, 1969 has been shut. It is covered with the precious Blood of My Son. His cleansing Blood is coursing through your body. I will restore what the enemy stole from you. Mark down this day, November 15, 2018. It is the day of your new beginning. The childlike faith you had is being and will be returned to you. I love you Kathleen. I have so much to share with you. Thank you for being obedient and for taking this step of faith. Your Abba.”
I offer this testimony in the hope that the Lord may use it to His honor and glory. I pray others may find freedom from the bondage their own careless words may have brought upon themselves. The freedom I’ve found is available to all. I Praise God for this!
Kathleen
