My Testimony: Abortions, Miscarriages, receiving God’s promise

8/15/25 5:11 PM
LM

Blessings my brothers & sisters in Christ.

I feel lead to start sharing my testimonies, it’s for His glory and to encourage others❤️

GOD is FAITHFUL to His promises🔥

“after the sun had set and darkness had fallen, a smoking fire pot and a flaming torch appeared and passed between the pieces of the divided animals” Genesis 15:17

“Therefore Sarah laughed within herself, saying, “After I have grown old, shall I have pleasure, my lord being old also?”

And the Lord said to Abraham, “Why did Sarah laugh, saying, ‘Shall I surely bear a child, since I am old?’ Is anything too hard for the Lord? At the appointed time I will return to you, according to the time of life, and Sarah shall have a son.”

But Sarah denied it, saying, “I did not laugh,” for she was afraid.

And He said, “No, but you did laugh!”

Genesis 18:12-15

This is my story of restoration😭…..

https://youtu.be/BcCrFE5gsFw?si=KDW7nVttDTxF92UD

Testimony of God’s Faithfulness

Hello everyone, and thank you so much for visiting my channel. This is Laura. As you can see from the title, I will be sharing a testimony that is long overdue.

Many times, I’ve felt a strong pull to make videos and share what the Lord has done in my life. Yet I would put it off—either I didn’t like how the video turned out, or I’d get interrupted and never finish. But inside, it felt like I would explode if I didn’t share, because everything He has done is for His glory and to encourage others.

The truth is, the Lord has done so much in my life—even in my years of rebellion, when I wasn’t walking with Him. I grew up in a Christian home, knew about Him, believed in Jesus, but didn’t have a personal relationship. I was a prodigal.

My Story: Abortion, Loss, and Guilt

In either 1999 or 2000, I had my first abortion. I won’t go into all the reasons why, but I regretted it deeply. I cried and cried afterward. There was even a bomb threat at the clinic that day, which delayed the procedure by three hours, but I still went through with it. I told myself it wasn’t a baby yet, trying to make it easier to bear.

In 2001, I became pregnant again and had my son in December. In 2002, I became pregnant once more and had my second son in 2003. Later that same year, I became pregnant again, but this time I chose abortion a second time. The clinic warned me I was very early in the pregnancy and that the procedure might be incomplete, which could cause severe bleeding. I ignored the warning. A few days later, exactly what they said would happen occurred—I bled heavily and had to be rushed to the hospital.

The guilt stayed with me. Even to this day, I sometimes think about what those babies would have looked like, whether they’d have been boys or girls, and what I would have named them.

Four Miscarriages

From 2003 to 2009, I didn’t get pregnant. I deeply desired a daughter. In 2009, I became pregnant again and was overjoyed—buying maternity clothes early—but at my first appointment, I was told there was no heartbeat. I sought second and third opinions, but each confirmed the same. I miscarried.

Soon after, I became pregnant again and miscarried a second time within months. Then a third time. Then a fourth miscarriage in 2012. During the last one, I became seriously ill with a blood infection that nearly took my life. Doctors told me I had scarring and blood pockets in my uterine lining, preventing pregnancies from holding past 8–11 weeks.

Some family members told me my miscarriages were God’s punishment for my abortions. I believed them. The condemnation was heavy.

A Strange Thought

After my fourth miscarriage, I sat at my desk and prayed:
“God, thank You for my two sons. Many women can’t even have one child. I accept that I won’t have any more.”

In that moment, a thought came to my mind: “You will have more children when you’re older.”
I laughed and dismissed it as my own imagination.

God’s Restoration

In 2014, I became pregnant again. At the ultrasound, I heard, “It’s a girl.” My excitement was mixed with fear of another loss. I was diagnosed with amniotic band syndrome, which could cause deformities or premature birth. But my daughter was born in March 2015—six weeks early but perfectly healthy. Even a hole in her heart healed completely. She excels in school today.

Almost immediately after, I became pregnant again—another girl—born March 2016. Then, without ever using birth control, I became pregnant once more. I knew by the familiar nausea. At the hospital, the doctor smiled and said, “You’re having twins.” Shocked and overwhelmed, I later prayed, “Lord, please let them be boys.” They were.

In 2017, I gave birth to twin boys—Isaac and Eli. The names weren’t my favorites at first, but I couldn’t shake the feeling they were meant to be.

The Revelation

In 2021, I had a radical encounter with the Lord that brought me back to Him. One night, reading Genesis, I came across the story of Sarah and Abraham. Suddenly I remembered that day at my desk, when I’d heard, “You will have more children when you’re older.”

It hit me—that was God’s voice. And it had come to pass. I had four children—just as He said—when I was 35, 36, and 37. Even more astonishing, one of my twins was named Isaac, just like Abraham and Sarah’s son.

The Lesson

Yes, I faced the consequences of my choices. Yes, God disciplines His children. But this story is proof of His mercy, faithfulness, and restoration. Even when I was unfaithful, He was faithful.

God gave me not just more children, but four healthy ones. He turned my mourning into joy and my guilt into gratitude.

LM

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